Dream I

The other night, I dreamed that I was pregnant. When finding this out I got really upset and confused. How and why was this happening to me? After a while, I went to the hospital for a checkup. While waiting in the waiting room, I decided to make a quick trip to the bathroom. After entering the single stall bathroom, I immediately went into labor. It was a painless, extremely fast experience. I hardly had time to know what was going on. I looked down to see that I had given birth to three of the whitest, fluffiest, cutest bunny rabbits I had ever seen. My distraught quickly turned to excitement. I couldn't wait to pick one up. Thoughts immediately started running through my mind....I could sell two of these heavenly bunnies for a high price and get to keep one for myself as a pet. Then to my surprise, I realized that one of the bunnies was the mother of the other two...How did I know this? It was one of those unexplainable dream moments....I just knew. And it didn't boggle me at all...

Tunnel of self-love

The most attractive thing in another person, considered by all people even if not realized, is a person's ability to love himself. Self-love. What is it? Why are we drawn to people who have it? Self-love is not as much of an emotion as it is a diminishing of a person's self disapproval, self doubt, and self disrespect. As easy as that sounds, self-love is hard to find in people. I think that's why we find it so attractive. What makes it so hard to achieve? We are constantly being told what's right and wrong. We are influenced so intensely by those around us that we constantly feel like we could be better. Self-love begins when a person realizes who they are and are comfortable and firm in what they see in themselves. We then see in these people that they are more focused on WHO they are rather than WHAT they are or what they COULD be. Nobody seems to be their own person. Is acceptance so important that we lose sight of who we really are and who we truly want to be? Is it so important that we begin to hate who we really are? Or is it just easy to do what others do, so that we don't even have to think about what we really want. Self-love is an easy thing to see in people because it's a characteristic that so few have. Their confidence shines through and draws me toward them. Self-love is something I catch myself struggling with at times. It's so easy to start criticizing myself. Confidence is the biggest sign of self-love. It's something I want people to see in me.

“You must love yourself before you love another. By accepting yourself and fully being what you are, your simple presence can make others happy.”

no boundaries

Sometimes driving down long country roads get to me. I get emotional. I become a part of something so much bigger than myself. A connection is discovered...reminded. There is no longer a line between me and the earth. I become one with it. I feel so small and yet so big at the same time. It's a high. It's overwhelming. It makes me cry. It makes me laugh. The earth and I become a mechanism, two parts acting in unison. Giving and taking. There is no longer a division between subject and object. The earth and I are no longer self and other, but instead, a single being. It's exhilarating to be a part of something so big. Sometimes it takes solitude, vacant land, and a good song to remind me of this phenomenon. The earth and I are more alike than unlike each other. It's a relationship. It's a confounding rush.